Laziness

"Today I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to lay in my bed. Don't feel like picking up my phone, so leave a message the tone. 'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything."

This song is my life sometimes. I really am a lazy person. Please don't call me out on it if you don't want to see my grumpy side. We all don't like being called on the carpet about our shortcomings. This is one of mine.

I consider this to encompass housework, schoolwork, even hobbies. Sometimes I just want to do nothing. The quote, "Why put of to tomorrow what you can do today?" Well, I live the opposite of that. What I really need to do is get off my a$$ and get moving. And only I can make this happen.

Last summer, I went to NYC with my friend Paula. It was an eye opening experience. I honestly never knew life could be like that. Watching my cousin Jessica navigate through the city and watching her work made me think. There is so much else out there that I was not aware of. I came back a different person. I started thinking bigger. But all I did was think.

My Aunt Peggy made a valiant attempt to ride her bike across Kansas, only to be derailed by a mild heat stroke. If it weren't for that, I bet she'd still be pedalling right now. She was determined to do this. I think seeing and reading about her adventures makes me realize that I can't just sit and let my life pass me by.

I started working on a book that I have been thinking about/kinda jotting down ideas. I want to try and finish it this summer. Or at least get a rough copy done. I also want to reorganize a few things in the house. I am not the best at this, but oddly, as I get older, clutter really bothers me . (now I understand why my mom was always on me to clean my room and pick up my crap) I would like to paint. I'm thinking of painting the girls (ie Devin's) bathroom and redo it. By redo, I mean paint and towels. No demo here.

I am noticing that the more free time I have, the more food (crap) I eat. So I am laying it all out here for the few who are bored enough to read this. Only I can change this part of me. I have the talent, the will, to do this. I just need to find the motivation. So for now, I use My Aunt Peggy. Soon, I will find it in myself.

"Life is not measured by the numner of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."

Your slacker and procrastonator,

Mandy